As if love wasn't complicated enough...

I'm having trouble.  All kinds of trouble really.

I feel strange and sort of immature saying it, but I think I'm in love.  

But see, it doesn't even end there.

I've been chasing after this one guy for a really long time.  Things are finally seeming to fall into place and he's finally starting to act like he's interested.  Which is great, obviously.  

But see, there's this other guy now.

And I'm getting very confused.  I've known him for a while now and we're really close but now I'm feeling like there's something else, and I'm pretty sure he's thinking the same thing too.

I can't understand how I can feel like this.  Like, I don't know how I'm capable of getting myself in such ridiculous places.

I can't tell if it's just become a habit to be after the first guy and if I don't actually feel that way anymore, but I also can't tell if I'm just fascinated with the second guy and that's why I'm getting so caught up in him.

It's really awful.  I'm trying not to go to bed because I know I'll end up thinking about it and not be able to sleep. (Which is ironic, because I'm staying awake so I don't have to worry about not sleeping....

I guess I should go though.  I'm going to my little cousin's pre-school graduation tomorrow morning at 9:30 so I need to go to bed. It's gonna be so cute! I'm psyched!

Night world! Please try to be friendlier in the morning?